About Nicnac And Their Podcast

Nicnac (they/them) is a passionate self-identifying autistic and queer person in their late 30s. Nicnac debuted their personal podcast The Nicnac Podcast in May of 2006. Their podcast features philosophical monologs and conversations with others about divergent life. Nicnac also hosts a dedicated series on flight simulation and other forms of computer simulation software called FSRideAlong which debuted in 2010.

In the past 15 years, Nicnac has produced over 400 episodes across their main podcast and their FSRideAlong Series. Nicnac has also volunteered their time in their community to produce and host audio content for radio and streaming media.

They are an all-around geek for learning about the world and its systems. As a result, they are extremely passionate about social justice and favor societal structures that ensure individual needs are met while working out communal concerns through Dynamic Governance and related processes. They are currently serving as an organizing council member of The Chico, California chapter of The Democratic Socialists of America.

As a creative person with a unique neurotype and a degree in game design, Nicnac places a high value on expressive projects. They believe that expressive projects are one of the better ways to cope with the phenomena of human life. They understand that neurodiversity means that every individual is unique. They hope that the balance of their output proves to be a force for good.

Please listen and decide for yourself.

If you feel called to, please support Nicnac’s hard work by sending a donation or leaving a kind constructive review in your favorite podcast app. Nicnac can also be reached via Twitter and email.

Nicnac thanks those willing to listen. They know that being empathetic is one of the biggest challenges a human can undertake.

They hope every individual can find the safety and support to empower them and meet their needs

The music used in the podcast opening is Raindrop Rhapsody by Josh Eikenberry. The closing music is Catch Me If You Can by Attica Attica. Nicnac thanks both groups for allowing their creations to be used in this production via The Creative Commons.

Nicnac shares and knows the value of The Creative Commons approach to intellectual creations.

Which is why…

The Nicnac Podcast & FSRideAlong Series is © 2006-2021 by Nicnac Marsh and is released under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial 4.0 International License

The Ugly

Trigger Warning: This is a deep, heavy, and honest episode that may not be suitable for everyone including dark themes, politics, and autistic life struggle. Please proceed intentionally and do your own thinking as required. If you don’t have the ability to listen with an open mind please don’t!

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Show Notes

In this episode, Nicnac drops as much of the mask as they can muster and just tries to deal with it in hopes of coming out the other side. 

Credits

The music is Raindrop Rahspody by Josh Elkinberry, The Fools Guide by Anthony Rotunno and, of course, Catch Me If You Can by Attica Attica

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The Nicnac Podcast & FSRideAlong Series is © 2006-2021 by Nicnac Marsh and is released under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial 4.0 International License

Borderline

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Show Notes:

In this episode, Nicnac’s creativity and life train is jarringly derailed by their very frustrated body’s instance on closeness despite Nicnac’s mind objecting to the cries. This forces Nicnac to explore a different kind of date seeking despite their extremely rational objections and ongoing gender changes.

Nicnac hopes this episode can serve as an admittedly dramatized look into their mind and their loathing of the gender they were assigned at birth.

They hope they can find someone far from Hellhole, CA who can see them for who they are. And, that they might work together to actually climb the Denali that could be divergent love. For Nicnac knows that people are people too.   

Credits

The music is Raindrop Rahspody by Josh Elkinberry, The Fools Guide by Anthony Rotunno and, of course, Catch Me If You Can by Attica Attica

If you enjoy this music please support these independent artists by buying their work or making donations!

The Nicnac Podcast & FSRideAlong Series is © 2006-2021 by Nicnac Marsh and is released under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial 4.0 International License

Genius Is Pain And Being Wrong

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Show Notes

In the episode, Nicnac reflects on their second conversation with Antony and tries to signal where they want to go next. This leads Nicnac back to their creative process and the problem of not being commercial while having walked backward into broadcasting. They tie it all to John’s simple statement of fact that genius is pain while noting it has to be packaged in just the right way. Nicnac hopes they package it in the right way just often enough.

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The music is Raindrop Rahspody by Josh Elkinberry, The Fools Guide by Anthony Rotunno and, of course, Catch Me If You Can by Attica Attica

If you enjoy this music please support these independent artists by buying their work or making donations!


The Nicnac Podcast & FSRideAlong Series is © 2006-2021 by Nicnac Marsh and is released under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial 4.0 International License

Nobody Told US

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Show Notes

In this episode, Nicnac has the privilege of being rejoined by Antony to wax about the challenges of being creatively divergent in a world nobody told us about. They muse about the last 20 years, the future and the further-flung past in a worthy follow-up to “Living Is Easy With Eyes Closed”. Please check out Antony’s wonderful music and podcasts including Glass Onion: on John Lennon, Film Gold and Life and Life Only

Credits

The music is Raindrop Rahspody by Josh Elkinberry, Mr. Rainbow-No Love by Nicnac Marsh, The Fools Guide by Anthony Rotunno and, of course, Catch Me If You Can by Attica Attica

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The Nicnac Podcast & FSRideAlong Series is © 2006-2021 by Nicnac Marsh and is released under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial 4.0 International License

20 Years

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Show Notes

In this episode, Nicnac reflects on the horrors of 9/11 even from 2,800 miles and 20 years away and tells what they remember of that morning 20 years ago from the perspective of an isolated and burnt-out kid who loves flight sim and hates war and oppression…They talk about the dim view they take of the choices made by world leaders in the 20 years since that day and the 56 years prior to that day 

Credits

The music is Raindrop Rhapsody by Josh Eikenberry.

The Nicnac Podcast & FSRideAlong Series is © 2006-2021 by Nicnac Marsh and is released under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial 4.0 International License

Say No To Dogma

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Show Notes

In this episode, Nicnac thinks back to the horrors of being a child and having that natural wonder beaten down and suppressed. Although Nicnac has never been able to tolerate children (even as a child) they see and know the pain of childhood. They encourage those that do have the skills needed to be there for children to let them be human. They encourage adults to remember a free their inner child.

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Credits

The opening music is Raindrop Rhapsody by Josh Eikenberry.

The closing music is Catch Me If You Can by Attica Attica. Find them at atticaattica.bandcamp.com.

The Nicnac Podcast & FSRideAlong Series is © 2006-2021 by Nicnac Marsh and is released under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial 4.0 International License

They Say It’s Raining

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Show Notes

In this episode, Nicnac reviews some notable media portrayals of Autism and autistic traits and puts them in the context of their personal experience of life on the spectrum as best they can. They focus their efforts on Raymond from Rain Man, House from House MD, and Leonard and Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory. Nicnac notes that the writers for House and Big Bang claimed their characters weren’t Autistic. Likely to try and give themself artistic license. Although Nicnac loves both shows at various points in their runs Nicnac views this move as dishonest and harmful to people that live the lives portrayed on a daily basis. Rain Man is a far worse case of the writer using Raymond as little more than a cheap story mechanic to force change in the main character (keep in mind Nicnac is a struggling writer. They get these things).

Nicnac again emphasizes the incredible diversity of the spectrum and how little those that don’t have lived experience truly know about Autistic life. Nicnac encourages media creators and consumers to be inclusive ad admit when they fall short. Nicnac strives to hold themselves to the same standard.

Links

Learn From Autistics

Autistamatic YouTube Channel

Autistic Collaboration

Sarah Kurchak

Credits

The opening music is Raindrop Rhapsody by Josh Eikenberry.

The closing music is Catch Me If You Can by Attica Attica. Find them at atticaattica.bandcamp.com.

The Nicnac Podcast & FSRideAlong Series is © 2006-2021 by Nicnac Marsh and is released under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial 4.0 International License

Being Studied And Treated

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In this episode, Nicnac turns a critical eye towards what little help is offered for divergent individuals with and without means in The United States. They break down their personal experience with their support systems both internal and external. They’ve come to like and accept most aspects of being an autistic, physically limited, queer, and trans person. But, they still struggle and endure much physical and mental pain from both the internal and external world. 

Being physically limited, their autism is their superpower. They have no interest in a cure! 

They don’t use person-first language these days because they would not be who they are were it not for their genetic inheritance and the traumatic life experience that inheritance has lead to.  it’s pain that leads to creative divergent ability. Nothing else. They seek only support that will empower their authentically autistic self. 

Little of that is available in The US. Still, less of it is being developed. Nicnac encourages anyone listening that cares to address them using their proper name and pronouns (Nicnac, They/Them). They understand that this takes getting used to and ask that people self-correct quickly before moving on.

To the scientific, education and medical communities, they point out that much of what they are currently doing isn’t helpful to their experience of being on the spectrum. It’s a spectrum so results will vary from individual to individual. They list their unmet needs in hopes that someone with the power to help meet them might hear. They do this mainly because their in-person articulative abilities are more limited than in the context of the podcast.

They find it strange how it all comes down to Maslow and Rosenberg. As if society has spent the last 48 years or so intentionally forgetting the tremendous thought that took place in the mid to late 20th century. They implore listeners to get over their amnesia. Pointing out that lives depend on it and noting that continuing their own life is mostly contingent on getting their needs meet and having their own space where they can stimm, game and live as they see fit. Including their extremely divergent sleeping habits that are functionally non-functional.

They have no qualms with dying on this hill. After so many years of living a life of social deprivation and ostracisation, the conclusion to them is pretty simple. People that fail to meet societal standards aren’t failures. Society is the falling element. They implore people to care enough to do better. Knowing that more wrongness will come. But, hoping that rightness will come along at some point. If not for them then for future generations that endure the dualistic nature of being on the harsher end of our neurologically diverse species.

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Learn From Autistics

Autistamatic YouTube Channel

Autistic Collaboration

Sarah Kurchak

Credits

The opening music is Raindrop Rhapsody by Josh Eikenberry.

The closing music is Catch Me If You Can by Attica Attica. Find them at atticaattica.bandcamp.com.

The Nicnac Podcast & FSRideAlong Series is © 2006-2021 by Nicnac Marsh and is released under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial 4.0 International License

Going Around Again

Trigger Warning: This is a deep, heavy, and honest episode that may not be suitable for everyone including dark themes, politics, and autistic life struggle. Please proceed intentionally and do your own thinking as required. If you don’t have the ability to listen with an open mind please skip this one!

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Autistic Education Survey

Show Notes

In this episode, Nicnac wrestles with the reality of their internal world and how that impacts the way they see the external world after losing a social connection they had a lot of hope for earlier in the month. While they know that attempts at sharing their internal world rarely go well no matter the social context, they hold steadfast in their desire to embrace their authentic autistic and borderline self. 

They express hope that careful online communities can continue to find the kind of lived truths that medicine and science can’t. Feeling that, although life for anyone not rich white and male is difficult, it’s better to intellectually and emotionally battle oppression than to completely withdraw and mask. Nicnac ain’t down yet. But, they’ve more than had it with a world that is hell-bent on oppressing divergent thoughts.

They close by again encouraging others with lived autistic experience to take Detester Maginzine’s educational survey if they have the capacity to do so. They are putting as much as they can into listening to others with greater or different knowledge of the lived experience than they possess. Please see the links below so you don’t have to take their word for it.

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Nicnac Podcast: Telling Our Stories-Interview with Suzanna Chen of Detester Magazine

Autistic Education Survey

Detester Magazine

Learn From Autistics

Autistamatic YouTube Channel

Autistic Collaboration

Sarah Kurchak

Credits

The music is Catch Me If You Can by Attica Attica. Find them at atticaattica.bandcamp.com.
The Nicnac Podcast & FSRideAlong Series is © 2006-2021 by Nicnac Marsh and is released under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial 4.0 International License

Rationally Irrational

In this episode, Nicnac reflects on the view outside their Windows and tries to synthesize the last month or so of their progress and creative endeavors over the last month or so. This is definitely an ongoing creative experiment so Nicnac would appreciate constructive feedback.

Nicnac is thankful to their recent guests for sharing their time effort and views. Please don’t forget to check out past episodes.

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Other Links

Detester Magazine

Autistic Education Survey

Learn From Autistics

Autistamatic YouTube Channel

Autistic Collaboration

Sarah Kurchak 

Credits

The opening music is Raindrop Rhapsody by Josh Eikenberry.

The closing music is Catch Me If You Can by Attica Attica. Find them at atticaattica.bandcamp.com.

“Money” © 2012 by Nicnac Marsh and is released under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial 4.0 International License


The Nicnac Podcast & FSRideAlong Series is © 2006-2021 by Nicnac Marsh and is released under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial 4.0 International License