In this episode, Nicnac finds herself half hearing Anne Murray’s version of “You Won’t See Me”. This ties into her ongoing translation and recent coming-out day events in Nicnac’s mind. She does her best to info dump and tell her story in an entertaining way. With hopes that she may be able to do another conversation episode around this sort of topic with a friend soon.
In this episode, Nicnac talks about where she is in divergent life, transitioning and thinking back to a person they once knew in passing who was so cool. She feels the sting of the missed connection even years later and tries to find the good in the missed connection and living the day-to-day challenges of being divergent. Nicnac advises you to skip if you aren’t ready to bawl your eyes out with love. She thanks you for sticking with her!
Trigger Warning: This is a deep, heavy, and honest episode that may not be suitable for everyone including dark themes, politics, and divergent life struggle. Please proceed intentionally and do your own thinking as required. If you don’t have the ability to listen with an open mind please don’t!
In this episode, Nicnac returns to unscripted formate to talk more about their fantasy of love, their admiration, and envy of Robert Evans and their not-so-pleasant feelings about their hometown. It somehow turns into the internets strangest personal ad mixed with a pledge drive. Yep Nicnac is definitely divergent as hell. Please support their work!
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In this episode, Nicnac does their best to process their birthday and more connection issues with other humans without excessive bitterness. They hope they’ve succeeded on some level.
Trigger Warning: This is a deep, heavy, and honest episode that may not be suitable for everyone including dark themes, politics, and autistic life struggle. Please proceed intentionally and do your own thinking as required. If you don’t have the ability to listen with an open mind please don’t!
In the episode, Nicnac reflects on their second conversation with Antony and tries to signal where they want to go next. This leads Nicnac back to their creative process and the problem of not being commercial while having walked backward into broadcasting. They tie it all to John’s simple statement of fact that genius is pain while noting it has to be packaged in just the right way. Nicnac hopes they package it in the right way just often enough.
Trigger Warning: This is a deep, heavy, and honest episode that may not be suitable for everyone including dark themes, politics, and autistic life struggle. Please proceed intentionally and do your own thinking as required. If you don’t have the ability to listen with an open mind please don’t!
In this episode, Nicnac reflects on the horrors of 9/11 even from 2,800 miles and 20 years away and tells what they remember of that morning 20 years ago from the perspective of an isolated and burnt-out kid who loves flight sim and hates war and oppression…They talk about the dim view they take of the choices made by world leaders in the 20 years since that day and the 56 years prior to that day
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The music is Raindrop Rhapsody by Josh Eikenberry.
In this episode, Nicnac thinks back to the horrors of being a child and having that natural wonder beaten down and suppressed. Although Nicnac has never been able to tolerate children (even as a child) they see and know the pain of childhood. They encourage those that do have the skills needed to be there for children to let them be human. They encourage adults to remember a free their inner child.
Trigger Warning: This is a deep, heavy, and honest episode that may not be suitable for everyone including dark themes, politics, and autistic life struggle. Please proceed intentionally and do your own thinking as required. If you don’t have the ability to listen with an open mind please don’t!
In this episode, Nicnac reviews some notable media portrayals of Autism and autistic traits and puts them in the context of their personal experience of life on the spectrum as best they can. They focus their efforts on Raymond from Rain Man, House from House MD, and Leonard and Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory. Nicnac notes that the writers for House and Big Bang claimed their characters weren’t Autistic. Likely to try and give themself artistic license. Although Nicnac loves both shows at various points in their runs Nicnac views this move as dishonest and harmful to people that live the lives portrayed on a daily basis. Rain Man is a far worse case of the writer using Raymond as little more than a cheap story mechanic to force change in the main character (keep in mind Nicnac is a struggling writer. They get these things).
Nicnac again emphasizes the incredible diversity of the spectrum and how little those that don’t have lived experience truly know about Autistic life. Nicnac encourages media creators and consumers to be inclusive ad admit when they fall short. Nicnac strives to hold themselves to the same standard.
