In this episode Nicnac tries to connect their recent progress in self identity to the work that they’ve done and how they came to do that work. They try to explain that they are driven to strive for a better world because they’ve experienced pain and indeed have caused pain. Nicnac does this by talking a bit about the podcast, their desire to be accepted, their more problematic coping techniques and explaining why they wrote and released their early song “Say What You Want To Say” at the age of 19.
The opening music is Raindrop Rhapsody by Josh Eikenberry. The closing music is Catch Me If You Can by Attica Attica. Find them at atticaattica.bandcamp.com. Nicnac thanks both groups for allowing their creations to be used in the production of other work.
In this episode Nicolas (Nicnac) explores their struggle to find the right balance in social interactions and overcome some insecurities that are currently hampering their ambitions. Nicolas also discusses the fate of their “wellness document” and the struggle to make better audio content. They close out the episode by talking about gender and queerness. Reemphasizing their relatively new belief that social justice progress cannot be solely dependent on non violent direct action. Progress has been enabled on social justice issues through a diverse range of actions including non-violent direct action, legal advocacy, mutual aid and events such as “The Stonewall Riots”.
In this episode Nicnac identifies the major components of their personal psyche; best articulated as an internal battle between Mr Spock (autism like) vs Homer Simpson (bipolar like) and how that battle impacts their struggle for wellness.