In this episode, Nicnac gives explaining and defining Neurodivergance another try, having felt that they may have glossed over a few things in recent episodes. They return to their favorite historic Psychologist Abraham Maslow to point out an important oversight in his research that some current scholars are beginning to understand. Namely, the internal experience of autism and other forms of neurodiversity.
They highlight the recent work done by Dr. Dora Raymaker and The Academic Autism Spectrum Partnership in Research and Education at Portland State University around the topic of Autistic Burnout and the age range when it becomes most severe. Generally speaking, around the time of transition into adulthood between about 15 and 25. In Nicnac’s case, this period extended well into their early 30’s. Nicnac notes that they relied heavily on and connected strongly to the work of John Lennon and The Beatles during this period of their life. Nicnac notes some notable parallels between John’s life experience and their own with both Nicnac and John seeming to express less external public distress by their early to mid-30s. Nicnac suspects that in both cases it’s more a matter of masking and avoiding known triggers than anything else.
Nicnac makes mention of a recent survey invitation they got to contribute to the creation of a guidebook for autistic teens as one example of improved research and collaborative methodology that is inclusive of the first-hand internal experience. Nicnac hopes that if researchers continue to include and involve people with the lived internal experience that mental health at large might slowly turn an important corner.
Nicnac again notes the importance of the neurodivergent online community. A community that often seems to be lightyears ahead of researchers especially when it came to finding an overlap between neurodiversity and gender diversity. Nicnac mentions where they are in their translation and that they are hoping they’ve found the right support in this area.
Finely, Nicnac mentions plans they have to branch out with the podcast despite their social limitations. This will hopefully include an interview with Antony Rotunno in the next episode. A podcaster, teacher, truth seeker and recording artist who knows John Lennon about as well as anyone who wasn’t John Lennon can. They also mention the story of Robert Pirsig. A person they hope to research and cover in some depth down the line. Finely, they mention their desire to interview other neurodivergent people and activists who are similarly hell-bent on making the world better even if we can’t stand humanity overall.
In this episode Nicnac describes a moment of incredible clarity that they reached at the end of last weekend. An experience that they articulate as something akin to A “Dr. House” style epiphany coupled with the euphoric clearly the character would experience at the end of the majority of the episodes in the 2004-2012 series. They make the best effort they can muster in an attempt to explain their lifelong social, work and daily cognitive experience. They have made a herculean effort to complete this production as they endure the early stages of neurodivergent burn out. They begin the wrap up process by providing recommendations for sources of other first hand accounts of the neurodivergent experience. Capping it all off by sharing a piece of prose that they feel captures their experience in a unique way. If you have feedback or questions please share them with Nicnac. They would be happy to respond and engage with those that are interested.
The opening music is Raindrop Rhapsody by Josh Eikenberry. The closing music is Catch Me If You Can by Attica Attica. Find them here. Nicnac thanks both groups for allowing their creations to be used in the production of other’s work. They do the same!
In this episode Nicnac works to shift their energy and considers what it will take cautiously to spend more time outside of their darkened studio where they’ve spent most of their time since Covid started in March of 2020. They are in the process of accepting the neurodivergent capacity limits they have that cause them to need to work hard to be mindful of their limits when outside of their safe space and interacting with others
In this episode Nicolas reviews their psychological history with a working Bipolar diagnosis and Autism Spectrum diagnosis (high functioning pre-DSM V Asperger’s Syndrome) and the highlights of their physical health history and how that impacts their path to wellness today. It’s going to take a lot to move those boulders in the road! But never give up. Keep trying