In this episode Nicnac works to shift their energy and considers what it will take cautiously to spend more time outside of their darkened studio where they’ve spent most of their time since Covid started in March of 2020. They are in the process of accepting the neurodivergent capacity limits they have that cause them to need to work hard to be mindful of their limits when outside of their safe space and interacting with others
In this episode Nicolas (Nicnac) explores their struggle to find the right balance in social interactions and overcome some insecurities that are currently hampering their ambitions. Nicolas also discusses the fate of their “wellness document” and the struggle to make better audio content. They close out the episode by talking about gender and queerness. Reemphasizing their relatively new belief that social justice progress cannot be solely dependent on non violent direct action. Progress has been enabled on social justice issues through a diverse range of actions including non-violent direct action, legal advocacy, mutual aid and events such as “The Stonewall Riots”.
In this episode Nicnac identifies the major components of their personal psyche; best articulated as an internal battle between Mr Spock (autism like) vs Homer Simpson (bipolar like) and how that battle impacts their struggle for wellness.
In this episode Nicolas reviews their psychological history with a working Bipolar diagnosis and Autism Spectrum diagnosis (high functioning pre-DSM V Asperger’s Syndrome) and the highlights of their physical health history and how that impacts their path to wellness today. It’s going to take a lot to move those boulders in the road! But never give up. Keep trying
Recent experience has given Nicolas pause about the way they think about and try to contribute to building communities. Now with a more fully realized understanding of the failings of the democratic process (as traditionally implemented in the Magna Carta, US Constitution and similar documents) Nicolas thinks again of NVC, Consensus and other approaches to arriving at a communal sense of consent to the best extent possible. Nicolas also expresses distress over their continued social challenges and how CBT style interventions have proved not to be effective for them.
In this episode Nicolas ponder whether new ideas are possible. And, if they are why they search for new ideas by looking at old ideas. They also ponder their mental cycles and wonder if there isn’t some way to embrace them rather than fight them or try to fix them.
In this episode I talk about my disability review, an activist gaming night, attending a Chico Peace Endeavor Board Meeting, my on going volunteer activities at The Chico Peace and Justice Center and getting a mentee for HopeXchange’s Bipolar Mentoring Program