In this episode Nicnac tries to connect their recent progress in self identity to the work that they’ve done and how they came to do that work. They try to explain that they are driven to strive for a better world because they’ve experienced pain and indeed have caused pain. Nicnac does this by talking a bit about the podcast, their desire to be accepted, their more problematic coping techniques and explaining why they wrote and released their early song “Say What You Want To Say” at the age of 19.
The opening music is Raindrop Rhapsody by Josh Eikenberry. The closing music is Catch Me If You Can by Attica Attica. Find them at atticaattica.bandcamp.com. Nicnac thanks both groups for allowing their creations to be used in the production of other work.
In this episode I flight a battle with malaise to ponder about why we as humans have such problems going from having good ideas to having good implementations of those ideas. I also talk about the benefits of the podcast medium and ponder the concept of ethical violence. Finally, I wonder if wondering about ethical violence makes me a terrorist
In this episode I attempt to reason with myself over doubts I have about the various elements of my life. My hope being that I can talk myself through rather than freaking out and returning to a solely flight sim based life
In this episode I talk about how far left my activist bent has taken me over the past eight year and how it serves to isolate me. I question whether the isolation is worth it. I also talk about gender identity and the stigma, stress, and alienation of changing pronouns. I conclude with the announcement that I am gender questioning pan-sexual who’s pronouns are they/them.
In this episode I talk about an instance where I failed to listen and communicate. I also talk about jury duty and the criminal justice system. I also mention my ambition to do as the Vulcans do and purge my emotions. Lastly I harp on the internet issue a bit.