In the episode, Nicnac reflects on their second conversation with Antony and tries to signal where they want to go next. This leads Nicnac back to their creative process and the problem of not being commercial while having walked backward into broadcasting. They tie it all to John’s simple statement of fact that genius is pain while noting it has to be packaged in just the right way. Nicnac hopes they package it in the right way just often enough.
In this episode, Nicnac recovers from burnt out for long enough to try and catch listeners up on their recent life journey. They use their recent virtual cross-country flying experience as a metaphor for their life experience and attempts to fly as far east as possible before ultimately flying west. They are making this metaphorical eastbound trip with nothing more than a highly calibrated moral compass, maps, and ride reports from other life pilots. They will know it’s time to land when their work produces some income but not enough income to screw up their delicate safety net. The struggle, of course, is to avoid the high terrain and dangerous weather of conformity culture. They’ve got a rough five-year plan if nothing else.
In this episode Nicnac tries to connect their recent progress in self identity to the work that they’ve done and how they came to do that work. They try to explain that they are driven to strive for a better world because they’ve experienced pain and indeed have caused pain. Nicnac does this by talking a bit about the podcast, their desire to be accepted, their more problematic coping techniques and explaining why they wrote and released their early song “Say What You Want To Say” at the age of 19.
The opening music is Raindrop Rhapsody by Josh Eikenberry. The closing music is Catch Me If You Can by Attica Attica. Find them at atticaattica.bandcamp.com. Nicnac thanks both groups for allowing their creations to be used in the production of other work.