In this episode, Nicnac’s creativity and life train is jarringly derailed by their very frustrated body’s instance on closeness despite Nicnac’s mind objecting to the cries. This forces Nicnac to explore a different kind of date seeking despite their extremely rational objections and ongoing gender changes.
Nicnac hopes this episode can serve as an admittedly dramatized look into their mind and their loathing of the gender they were assigned at birth.
They hope they can find someone far from Hellhole, CA who can see them for who they are. And, that they might work together to actually climb the Denali that could be divergent love. For Nicnac knows that people are people too.
In the episode, Nicnac reflects on their second conversation with Antony and tries to signal where they want to go next. This leads Nicnac back to their creative process and the problem of not being commercial while having walked backward into broadcasting. They tie it all to John’s simple statement of fact that genius is pain while noting it has to be packaged in just the right way. Nicnac hopes they package it in the right way just often enough.
In this episode, Nicnac briefly returns to one Marx line to get at individual variation and adds a corollary about the social contract.
Nicnac notes the importance of living in a dreamland to keep oneself going but underscores the importance of keeping the ratio of the time one spends in dreamland and the time one spends in the real world as balanced as possible in line with needs.
Nicnac ends by imploring folks to learn to accept every individual fully. Both their failures and their success. Even if you can’t relate to them. Believing that this is as close a path as we may find towards species growth.
In this episode, Nicnac gives explaining and defining Neurodivergance another try, having felt that they may have glossed over a few things in recent episodes. They return to their favorite historic Psychologist Abraham Maslow to point out an important oversight in his research that some current scholars are beginning to understand. Namely, the internal experience of autism and other forms of neurodiversity.
They highlight the recent work done by Dr. Dora Raymaker and The Academic Autism Spectrum Partnership in Research and Education at Portland State University around the topic of Autistic Burnout and the age range when it becomes most severe. Generally speaking, around the time of transition into adulthood between about 15 and 25. In Nicnac’s case, this period extended well into their early 30’s. Nicnac notes that they relied heavily on and connected strongly to the work of John Lennon and The Beatles during this period of their life. Nicnac notes some notable parallels between John’s life experience and their own with both Nicnac and John seeming to express less external public distress by their early to mid-30s. Nicnac suspects that in both cases it’s more a matter of masking and avoiding known triggers than anything else.
Nicnac makes mention of a recent survey invitation they got to contribute to the creation of a guidebook for autistic teens as one example of improved research and collaborative methodology that is inclusive of the first-hand internal experience. Nicnac hopes that if researchers continue to include and involve people with the lived internal experience that mental health at large might slowly turn an important corner.
Nicnac again notes the importance of the neurodivergent online community. A community that often seems to be lightyears ahead of researchers especially when it came to finding an overlap between neurodiversity and gender diversity. Nicnac mentions where they are in their translation and that they are hoping they’ve found the right support in this area.
Finely, Nicnac mentions plans they have to branch out with the podcast despite their social limitations. This will hopefully include an interview with Antony Rotunno in the next episode. A podcaster, teacher, truth seeker and recording artist who knows John Lennon about as well as anyone who wasn’t John Lennon can. They also mention the story of Robert Pirsig. A person they hope to research and cover in some depth down the line. Finely, they mention their desire to interview other neurodivergent people and activists who are similarly hell-bent on making the world better even if we can’t stand humanity overall.
In The Nicnacjak Podcast Season 14 finale Nicolas reflects on their 15 years in podcasting and broadcasting. An unplanned career move that turned out reasonably well. Still, Nicolas expresses concern about the future of the medium as big tech tries to tighten their grip on content producers like themselves who have enjoyed relative freedom in an increasingly corporately controlled internet environment.
In this episode I describe the struggle I am having with the primary effects of the psychiatric meds I’ve been prescribed following my mental breakdown. I also describe an interview with an intern that I’ll be airing for my first Big Idea Show this week and the struggle I am having to frame the interview within the context of the show. Finally I touch on my binary brain and how that parallels with older people’s struggle to understand the concept of the non-binary gender identity.