In this episode, Nicnac ends up going back to their formative years in the 1990s to examine a bit more of how they become who they are referring to it as “90’s X-Files Culture”. This cultural upbringing when combined with their pre-existing neurodivergent tendencies and childhood cancer trauma made Nicnac into the unique neurodivergent skeptical geek that they are today.
They pose the notion that being in the twilight years of Earth’s ability to sustain current life isn’t so bad if truth-seekers can gather together to extrapolate the lessons of the failed human experiment. They acknowledge their failings and liabilities in the area and seek your help to give any nuggets of truth they have found the legs they need to contribute and make the human endeavor worthwhile.
Following the frustrating attempt the understand knowledge as a form of escape, Nicolas begins to explore eastern thought. As they do this, they also acknowledge and breakdown the various components of their life
In this episode Nicolas attempts to take the next step from the last episode by searching for the definition of knowledge. Finding nothing definitive, they go through their understanding of the concept and its limits. Once again they find that their efforts fruitless. Further, they discover that their efforts have in fact represented an attempt to escape their reality.
In this episode Nicolas ponder whether new ideas are possible. And, if they are why they search for new ideas by looking at old ideas. They also ponder their mental cycles and wonder if there isn’t some way to embrace them rather than fight them or try to fix them.