Trigger Warning: This is a deep, heavy, and honest episode that may not be suitable for everyone including dark themes, politics, and autistic life struggle. Please proceed intentionally and do your own thinking as required. If you don’t have the ability to listen with an open mind please don’t!
In this episode, Nicnac ends up going back to their formative years in the 1990s to examine a bit more of how they become who they are referring to it as “90’s X-Files Culture”. This cultural upbringing when combined with their pre-existing neurodivergent tendencies and childhood cancer trauma made Nicnac into the unique neurodivergent skeptical geek that they are today.
They pose the notion that being in the twilight years of Earth’s ability to sustain current life isn’t so bad if truth-seekers can gather together to extrapolate the lessons of the failed human experiment. They acknowledge their failings and liabilities in the area and seek your help to give any nuggets of truth they have found the legs they need to contribute and make the human endeavor worthwhile.
In this episode, Nicnac recovers from burnt out for long enough to try and catch listeners up on their recent life journey. They use their recent virtual cross-country flying experience as a metaphor for their life experience and attempts to fly as far east as possible before ultimately flying west. They are making this metaphorical eastbound trip with nothing more than a highly calibrated moral compass, maps, and ride reports from other life pilots. They will know it’s time to land when their work produces some income but not enough income to screw up their delicate safety net. The struggle, of course, is to avoid the high terrain and dangerous weather of conformity culture. They’ve got a rough five-year plan if nothing else.
In this episode, Nicnac starts to puzzle over how to adjust to what they now know about themselves. They review their various coping systems and lament the “return to normal” humbug that is currently adding to the already oppressive normalization meat grinder. They conclude that their best path forward is to stick with what they know works and learn to say no when needed. This includes minimizing social interactions in any form, rolling with their energy flows, and trying to figure out how to conduct their life from home. Fortunately. Covid gave them a head start. Now if all the back to normal people would go away!