Trigger Warning: This is a deep, heavy, and honest episode that may not be suitable for everyone including dark themes, politics, and autistic life struggle. Please proceed intentionally and do your own thinking as required. If you don’t have the ability to listen with an open mind please don’t!
Trigger Warning: This is a deep, heavy, and honest episode that may not be suitable for everyone including dark themes, politics, and autistic life struggle. Please proceed intentionally and do your own thinking as required. If you don’t have the ability to listen with an open mind please skip this one!
In this episode, Nicnac wrestles with the reality of their internal world and how that impacts the way they see the external world after losing a social connection they had a lot of hope for earlier in the month. While they know that attempts at sharing their internal world rarely go well no matter the social context, they hold steadfast in their desire to embrace their authentic autistic and borderline self.
They express hope that careful online communities can continue to find the kind of lived truths that medicine and science can’t. Feeling that, although life for anyone not rich white and male is difficult, it’s better to intellectually and emotionally battle oppression than to completely withdraw and mask. Nicnac ain’t down yet. But, they’ve more than had it with a world that is hell-bent on oppressing divergent thoughts.
They close by again encouraging others with lived autistic experience to take Detester Maginzine’s educational survey if they have the capacity to do so. They are putting as much as they can into listening to others with greater or different knowledge of the lived experience than they possess. Please see the links below so you don’t have to take their word for it.
In this episode, Nicnac reflects on the view outside their Windows and tries to synthesize the last month or so of their progress and creative endeavors over the last month or so. This is definitely an ongoing creative experiment so Nicnac would appreciate constructive feedback.
Nicnac is thankful to their recent guests for sharing their time effort and views. Please don’t forget to check out past episodes.
In this episode, Nicnac describes their Philosophy of Disability and the way that the world they live in forces them into thinking about it in many ways at the same time. They reason that the best way to make progress on this is to keep sharing their experience and empathically listening to the experience of others.
In this episode Nicolas wonder what makes one virtuous. Their conclusion is that the ultimate achievements or failures in one’s life can only be judged posthumously and that the struggles and strife one goes through in life build the charter necessary to be judged.
In this episode Nicolas attempts to take the next step from the last episode by searching for the definition of knowledge. Finding nothing definitive, they go through their understanding of the concept and its limits. Once again they find that their efforts fruitless. Further, they discover that their efforts have in fact represented an attempt to escape their reality.
In this episode Nicolas ponder whether new ideas are possible. And, if they are why they search for new ideas by looking at old ideas. They also ponder their mental cycles and wonder if there isn’t some way to embrace them rather than fight them or try to fix them.