Trigger Warning: This is a deep, heavy, and honest episode that may not be suitable for everyone including dark themes, politics, and autistic life struggle. Please proceed intentionally and do your own thinking as required. If you don’t have the ability to listen with an open mind please don’t!
In the episode, Nicnac reflects on their second conversation with Antony and tries to signal where they want to go next. This leads Nicnac back to their creative process and the problem of not being commercial while having walked backward into broadcasting. They tie it all to John’s simple statement of fact that genius is pain while noting it has to be packaged in just the right way. Nicnac hopes they package it in the right way just often enough.
Trigger Warning: This is a deep, heavy, and honest episode that may not be suitable for everyone including dark themes, politics, and autistic life struggle. Please proceed intentionally and do your own thinking as required. If you don’t have the ability to listen with an open mind please skip this one!
In this episode, Nicnac wrestles with the reality of their internal world and how that impacts the way they see the external world after losing a social connection they had a lot of hope for earlier in the month. While they know that attempts at sharing their internal world rarely go well no matter the social context, they hold steadfast in their desire to embrace their authentic autistic and borderline self.
They express hope that careful online communities can continue to find the kind of lived truths that medicine and science can’t. Feeling that, although life for anyone not rich white and male is difficult, it’s better to intellectually and emotionally battle oppression than to completely withdraw and mask. Nicnac ain’t down yet. But, they’ve more than had it with a world that is hell-bent on oppressing divergent thoughts.
They close by again encouraging others with lived autistic experience to take Detester Maginzine’s educational survey if they have the capacity to do so. They are putting as much as they can into listening to others with greater or different knowledge of the lived experience than they possess. Please see the links below so you don’t have to take their word for it.
In this episode, Nicnac sits down with Antony Rotunno, a teacher, podcaster, musician, truth seeker and life coach to talk about artistic media creation, the search for truth, John Lennon, The Beatles and everything in-between. This is a hugely deep conversation that will likely cause both Nicnac and listeners to rethink some things.
The opening music is Raindrop Rhapsody by Josh Eikenberry. We also hear a selection of Antony’s “Life Goes On” featuring an amazing violin solo by María Martín. “Life Goes On” is copyright 2017 by Antony Rotunno and included with his permission. Check out his music at https://www.antonyrotunno.com/ The closing music is Catch Me If You Can by Attica Attica. Find them at atticaattica.bandcamp.com.
I thank these artists for allowing their creations to be used in this production.
In this episode Nicnac traces how they came into podcasting and attempts to convey what they are aspiring towards along with how their own experiences and limitations have shaped their work. Nicnac is excited about the process of taking their work to the next level and thankful for all who have contributed to the craft and taught it to them. Having a podcast that combines Nicnac’s unique interests, strife and limitations is interesting. It seems to work almost despite itself. Nicnac hopes you will continue to join them on this journey wherever it may lead.
In this episode Nicolas (Nicnac) explores their struggle to find the right balance in social interactions and overcome some insecurities that are currently hampering their ambitions. Nicolas also discusses the fate of their “wellness document” and the struggle to make better audio content. They close out the episode by talking about gender and queerness. Reemphasizing their relatively new belief that social justice progress cannot be solely dependent on non violent direct action. Progress has been enabled on social justice issues through a diverse range of actions including non-violent direct action, legal advocacy, mutual aid and events such as “The Stonewall Riots”.
In The Nicnacjak Podcast Season 14 finale Nicolas reflects on their 15 years in podcasting and broadcasting. An unplanned career move that turned out reasonably well. Still, Nicolas expresses concern about the future of the medium as big tech tries to tighten their grip on content producers like themselves who have enjoyed relative freedom in an increasingly corporately controlled internet environment.
A mistake in switching podcasts hosts has resulted in The Nicnac Podcast and FSRideAlong Podcasts being merged into one feed and Nicolas is seeking feedback on how listeners feel about potentially having one Podcast and Twitter feed again. Additionally, Nicolas got the stimulus and a tax return within a very short timespan. Having consumed “like a good American” Nicolas is now continuing to wrestle with their conscience and ensure their continued survival and comfort.
In this episode Nicolas traces their tech history over the past 30 years or so (has it really been that long?). Nicolas then goes on to talk about the fact that they are much more of a tech user than a tech geek these days despite their background. This leads Nicolas to wonder, is it even worth it to build a new computer? Nicolas touches on their struggle for meaningful work in light of the pandemic and the way the world is currently going. Finely, Nicolas talks about their laptop troubles which have now piled on to the ongoing desktop drama and the struggle to back up to the cloud.