Trigger Warning: This is a deep, heavy, and honest episode that may not be suitable for everyone including dark themes, politics, and autistic life struggle. Please proceed intentionally and do your own thinking as required. If you don’t have the ability to listen with an open mind please skip this one!
In this episode, Nicnac wrestles with the reality of their internal world and how that impacts the way they see the external world after losing a social connection they had a lot of hope for earlier in the month. While they know that attempts at sharing their internal world rarely go well no matter the social context, they hold steadfast in their desire to embrace their authentic autistic and borderline self.
They express hope that careful online communities can continue to find the kind of lived truths that medicine and science can’t. Feeling that, although life for anyone not rich white and male is difficult, it’s better to intellectually and emotionally battle oppression than to completely withdraw and mask. Nicnac ain’t down yet. But, they’ve more than had it with a world that is hell-bent on oppressing divergent thoughts.
They close by again encouraging others with lived autistic experience to take Detester Maginzine’s educational survey if they have the capacity to do so. They are putting as much as they can into listening to others with greater or different knowledge of the lived experience than they possess. Please see the links below so you don’t have to take their word for it.
In this episode Nicnac tries to succinctly synthesize and summarize their work and call out US conformity culture for what it is. They briefly summarize their historical findings before sharing their view that now is the time to connect with like minds, help where you can but lay low and stay safe in hopes that humanity will see better days in some far distant future. Sometimes The Obi-Wan Kenobi approach makes the most sense….
The opening music is Raindrop Rhapsody by Josh Eikenberry. The closing music is Catch Me If You Can by Attica Attica. Find them at atticaattica.bandcamp.com. Nicnac thanks both groups for allowing their creations to be used in the production of other work.
In this episode Nicnac talks about gender and the challenges that arise from trying to navigate the world being as true to themselves and others as possible. They ponder how hard it is to be real in modern society and seek your feedback on how that reflects on our species in the long run.
This episode finds Nicolas living in a very confused mixed reality surrounded by technology in an effort to obscure their own vulnerability to shelter issues. Still haunted by their brief experience with being shelterless half a decade ago, Nicolas attempts to process their feelings about the eviction of shelterless camps in Chico and Los Angeles and the limited paths to resolution. While taking the legal approach to challenging these evictions is the most viable it requires a massive amount of funding and is a long term approach. And, in the short term, direct action is unsustainable without mass. And, with a divided and desperate population mass appeal seems hard to come by.
In this episode Nicolas struggles with their own sense of integrity and their recent lapses as well as the lapses in integrity of other organizations and people around them. Nicolas really struggles with trying to find an honest path towards harm reduction.
In this episode Nicolas discusses trying to triage meeting the current demands of their life loosely informed by their understanding of Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs and The Wellness Recovery Action Plan. The former has proven to be more helpful as Nicolas works though their survival needs in hopes of being able to spend more time on meeting esteem needs.
In this episode Nicolas does their best to come up with a coping and survival mechanism for the times ahead. They conclude that the best approach is to develop a tight knit group of people that one can support and get support from. They also talk about their vote, the problematic mechanics of representation and the potential of the sociocratic mechanic. Finally, they mention their new flight sim service offers.